Considering what is human and what is not. Reacting on the basis of input and interpretations of that input in a mind set by ways of previous encounters and experiences. Comparing. Using. Reframing and rephrasing. Changing (even if we claim to never change).

I have become more and more aware of the effects of your perspectives influence on the way that life appears to yourself. Recent events have set my mindfram even deeper into places I usually do not dwell for long (simply for the reason that there is nothing good to get there at all). I feel that my whole existence is tearing on itself - it is not a good place to be at, I can assure you of that.

This Monday I was in a car accident (my first). I was not harmed badly physically but considering my mindset before the accident (months back realy) with the addition of this event I have been feeling that some of my essence has slipped away from me (deeper into hiding than ever before). One could call it a dislike of life as it is for the moment, but it would not be the complete truth.

I am having trouble finding reason. Many of the phrases I use fit well withing the definition of a depression, perhaps that is what I am experiencing at the moment.

I am trying to find myself again.